wooooooo!

so this morning, much to my surprise, i stepped on the scale on a whim, and it read 136!! finallyyyy!!! my goal was to be 136 this past sunday but i'd been stuck on 138 for almost two weeks! jeez! i was so happy i finally got to 136! hopefully i can loose another pound or two by the weekend!
its probably all the taebo i've been doing (yes i am literally obsessed with it). but i've done it just about every day for the last week soo yayyy. im gonna keep it up! and hopefully buy another dvd this weekend when i get paid. thats the only problem with taebo dvds.. i'm starting to lose interest in the first one i bought. not cause its boring or a bad workout, but just cause i've done it a dozen times so i know what comes next and how much longer till i'm done so idk it takes more effort to be focused i guess. but the more dvds i buy, the more i can rotate them and do different things everyday. cause i don't want to be doing the same workout all the time.. that might bulk up certain muscles and neglect others.. so variety will be good.
I'm definitely seeing a change in my body. its slight, but its there. overall theres less fat on me and more muscle. thats probably why the number on the scale isn't going down so fast. but im ok with that. i wanna looked toned.. just not muscley. and i think thats whats happening. all the taebo gives you a decent cardio workout but it also strengthens you but with your own body weight so its not like your doing reps of 20lb weights. my legs seems a little bit thinner and stronger, but the change is noticable in my arms (YAY) and my back.. hot damn my back looks awesome. and my stomach is slightly thinner... tae bo doesn't do a great job working your abs unless you're reaalllyy focused on holding them in the whole time.. which is super hard when you're kicking and punching and shit. so i think i need to add in some ab workout.

^she's so hot.

^she's got a great body. thin but not scary skinny.

ok im rambling.. onto the thinspo

lots and lots of pics

hey allll!


im in an ok mood right now. just waiting to go out later.. maybe.. my friends are flakes. 


anyways.. i did taebo monday thru thursday this week.. and well, my weight stayed at 138 (that damn number!!) but i do feel thinner and stronger and i think i look a little thinner so maybe its working after all. im gonna keep up with doing the tae bo all weekend and as much as next week as possible, so hopefully every week i keep it up i'll look a bit thinner and prettier =]


ok on to the loads of pics!

^ love love love love. how nerdy! <3

extreeeeme

so i did a new taebo workout today. it was tae bo "extreme" ... and it was. my arms are already sore! it was super fun tho, and definitely doable. i'm hoping i wont be too sore to workout tmrw tho. i wanna keep up my "do a taebo workout every day" plan for the week and see what happens. HOPEFULLY i lose poundage and gain nice muscle. i am a little afraid of over-doing it and ending up scary-manly-buff. but the tae bo seems to balance muscle things with cardio so i should be aiiight. and if not, its just a week, so i can easily tone it down and do less tae bo and more running/ plain cardio. 


i'm trying not to be so gloomy, but really, my mood is so up and down with how i feel about my body. i wish i could just chill and accept it for now and accept the fact that it will get to be what i want it to be eventually, but errrrrghhh.. i just want the numbers to go down. its hard to feel good about working out and shiz when the scale stays at 138... and i know, i know, muscle weighs more than fat, and its not about the number, its about how you look and feel, but DAMMIT its a little bit about the number, and i want it at 135.. and then 130... and maybe 125? 


ergh


well, heres some pics who dont have the same problems as i do:

^ i just think this is funny xD  <3

long post with lots of blabbing

hey alll


so i'm about to ramble for a bit. about my weight, duh. i just feel so bipolar about my weight/body. one day i'm all "yayy this is going so well, i feel great!" and then the next i'm like "oh GOD im a bloated cow!". i think im still at 138... that number will be the death of me. my goal is 135 by sunday. I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT! i just dunno how =/ i am exercising like i usually do. and its not like i eat a tonne of fattening food. ughh. idk. i really don't. 
I ordered two more tae bo dvds... so they should be here [hopefully] tmrw? yayyy. so i think i will try doing one tae bo workout a day until sunday. it sucks cause i'm super busy with school work, so i get real tired trying to juggle everything. but i can do it. yeaaahhhh 135! i just wanna be super hot! hahah like, toned and thin. not super skinny. ugh. i'm not fat, but like, if i'm having a bloaty day, i definitely look bad. if i'm having a good day i look fine. i just wish when i had a bloaty day i looked fine, and when i had a good day i looked awesome. yanno? maybe that didn't make any sense. 


well, i hope those tae bo dvds come in tmrw. theyre fun, and make me feel like i'm getting stronger. 


anyways, got lots of pics:

^perfect back and arms <3

quick post

hey alll
suuuperr busy, so this will be quick and short. im at a steady 138 it seems. which is ok, cause that what technically my goal for this week, but also worries me cause i am in a rut! just means i'm gonna have to kick it up a notch. i was thinking of doing a week or two of cleanse dieting.. not the "drinking lemonade and maply syrup" kind.. cause thats just weird... but sticking to uncooked fruits and veggies, lean meats/eggs whites, no cheese (waahhh =/ ) no sugar (double wahhh =/ ) i think it'll help me shed some more fat and get leaner. unfortunately i'm gonna be soo busy this coming week idk if i'll have the time to buy proper groceries or really if i'll be able to do it =/ but im definintely gonna try. so hopefully i can stick to it and drop some pounds next week! 


alright, enough blabbing. these are all suicide girls, so hopfully i'm not infringing on some copyright or something. but dayumm. they're hot. always wanted to be a suicide girl, like a secret double life kinda thing, but idk any photographers. haha oh well, maybe one day...